{day 8: a thank you letter to someone who has changed your life}

So many people have changed my life BUT this girl made my life go from black and white to Color. I will never forget the day I found out I was going to have a baby...My 23rd Birthday! I was so scared,so happy and so unsure if I would be able to give you all you needed. It wasn't the best timing, I was just out of a marriage and had started dating your dad. I will never forget his words " Jen, I love you and we will make this work" from then on it was a dream!
I walked around with my head held high I didn't care what people thought of me...you were wanted and loved. The pregnancy was hard the labor even harder, you are a true miracle my love. After 18 hours of labor and 4 hours of pushing you were here...Dr. Silva was in shock "look at this, she has 2 true knots in her cord....this baby is a miracle" I had no idea what any of this meant until soon after a friend of mine gave birth to a still born baby with a true knot in her cord....You were meant to be here no matter the circumstances God knew what he was doing in my life.
I was amazed with every day that passed,in awe with how much I could love you. You didn't change my life you MADE my life. You saved me from myself taught me to be selfless and gave me goals.  I am so very thankful that God chose me for you. I am thankful that your dad chose to stand by me in order to make such a beautiful family for us all....You are the wings to my soul and since the day you were born we have yet to touch the ground. Your spirit brings life to our family and I can't imagine not having you around. Emelia you make me so proud, if I accomplish nothing else in this life time I know that by being your mother I have it all...
Thank you for making me wake up and see that life is beautiful....that love is strong and timing is everything. You make me a better person, I would do anything to see you smile and hear your laugh. Without you there would be no me...I love you to the moon and back!


<3 Mommy